It's been a while since I have let my thoughts run rampant through my fingers...I'm feeling a bit antsy because of it too.
*freeeeeee the fingins*
A lot has gone on in my household lately. None bad, just lots.
Where to start. Where. To. Start.
*I'm nervous about what I'm about to type*
I'll start with Colie. She's the beginning and the main thing on my mind lately.
Blondie and I Walked to Defeat ALS with Colie, her friends and family for her dad. As I looked around I saw a sea of glow stick green, all in support of Larry. Bright pink in support of someone else. Camo in support of yet another person plagued by this shitty disease.
It was a very emotional day for me, as I am sure it was for everyone. Here I was surrounded by happiness and sadness all at the same time. Hope, excitement, grief and loss. And then there was Colie, big beautiful grin on her face, as always. Bright green sparkling tu-tu with matching t-shirt. She looked cute as always.
She hid her eyes behind cute glasses.
Yes it was a beautiful day, the sun was out *she was wearing green so bright it shamed the sun, reflecting in a mirror...on fire* but that wasn't the reason today.
Colie's eyes tell stories...this story is one I am familiar with, a story I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy let alone someone I care about and love.
*Stupid shitty diseases. We aren't ready to lose him yet. Go away and never come back, we still need him!*
I am so PROUD of you Colie. You are doing everything right, you aren't ignoring what is happening. You are not being silent. Don't ever be silent.
Look around you, all the support! What a huge amount of support from those you've touched, those you continue to touch.
You are a survivor.
Buggs I am so sorry! I wish I could take it all away, I wish I could live this for you. But I can't. This is a gift to you, a shitty gift but one nonetheless. There is a lesson to learn, in everything we over come there is a bigger lesson. You might not see it now, and that's ok. But you will soon.
*just don't do what I did, ten years to figure out a lesson is a wee bit too long.*
You. Will. Be. OK.
*eff you ALS, we are stronger than you*
Remember the time I was cutting fruit in the Foresthill house and you told me you were allergic to cantaloupe, but not if you put salt on it?
Ya, you're nuts and I still love you.
